So once again, it has been another year and so since I posted. I'm so glad that they don't delete your account since I keep doing this and love being able to look back and reflect on things. it's strange to compare what I am feeling right now as to what I just read. I am in a completely different place. To cut a long story short, I got accepted to a nine month internship in my local hospital in my favourite ward where I had been a student during my training. Since then in May (knowing that my internship would be coming to a close) I began the elusive hunt for a permant post. After a few weeks I attended an interview for a stroke rehabilitation ward which I got so excited about and found out later that day down the beach whilst holding a ladybug that I had gotten the post. Man alive I was so relieved I don't remember even being happy-just relived. As sure as pie the following week I got another interview for a hospital this time in an acute Gastroenteology ward. I went to this interview in leggings and barely even bothering about it.....4 hours later received a phonecall to say I had the post. After much painful scrutiny I went with the medical ward and have now been working there for three months.
On one hand it's everything I ever wanted, so challenging, learning so much, the team are fantastic on the other it is killing me. I've started thinking I have bad luck or something. My workload is so massive, the patients and problems are so actue and complex. During every shift I feel like I'm drowning in stress. This is one of the reasons I have decided to pent some of my stress and frustration about work to LJ. Typing this I feel rather angry at myself. I have everything I ever wanted career wise and yet I'm moaning. I do love the ward, I just can't wait till I've settled in more and learned more and take more things in my stride. I've certainly changed from feeling ill on my days off with worry about my next shifts as the ward sister pulled me aside last week to tell me I was doing well and she could see how much I cared. This was music to my ears as let me tell you a comment from her is FEW and far between. I had one patient who had came in reduced mobility and confusion, he is a pancreatic CA and was having to have ascities drained from his abdomen. This normally takes three days. This was last wednesday. I then found out that this mans last wish was to walk his daughter down the ailse at her wedding ....which was last saturday. Dear god I hope he got out of hospital in time :(.
On other news since my last post. My sister, and friend and I went to the last Harry Potter premiere, an experience which will 1.never be forgotten and 2. never be repeated. 27 hours awake of queing, not eating, lying in the rain in trafalgar square, and twelve hours standing at the barrier in the rain where I am suprised we didn't get TRENCHFOOT! The sun split the sky and Rupert Grint stood inches away from me. :)
David and I much to my amazement at his ability to put up with me, are still together. Went to Egypt a month ago. which was in a word incredible. David was so amazed. He had never wanted to go there and it was even his own idea because he found such a good deal. We went to see the pyramids which certainly was one of the more surreal moments of my life. and also done an excursion where we went out to Sinai dessert, and had a camel race yes race, halfway through leading us the people handed us the reigns and smacked the camels bottom making them team off ahead. This was following by a shisha pipe, bedouin tea and bread making lesson, then watched the sunset from the bedouin tent, learned about their way of life. Then went the sunset the stars came out with absolutly no light pollution for miles around and had an astrologist teach us some stargazing. :) Also the private jhetty was a site to behold with the beauty of the coral and all the fish.
Oh I have two little fishes called fanta and sprite. Still no big house where I can have eighteen million guinea pigs so that dreams still on hold. Hmmmm what else is new? Oh I now love Zelda. Cannot believe I call myself a nintendo girl when I had never saved Zelda before! Needless to say I am on my second quest and SHAT myself when twilight princess had a tear collecting scenario which is though was going to be like the TERRIYING chasing that went on with tears in Skyward Sword luckily it was different!
Think I'm going to call it a night and hopefully it won't be another year before my next post!
Live long and Prosper!
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